"bad lil doggie"

self inflicted realities clogging up my head. i’m a big fat baby who wets the bed. i did this to myself, i don’t like the tune and i composed it. i did this to myself, regrets making me sick to my stomach. i did this to myself, i did this to myself. responsibility burning like a knife in my belly. sick with emotions and a grief that im too weak to face. i get drunk to forget but i will never learn how to forgive. its hard to stay strong when you know you're wrong. i just can't help it, i’m a bad lil doggie. i don’t like my leash, so i break and bite everything. nobody wants to house me, so they put me in a cage. mistakes, mistakes, i make em, i made em. mistakes, mistakes, i am a product of them. somethings you just cant escape. every mangy mutt eats his own shit. captain goes down with the ship. i will probably never be happy, i am a butcher of myself. i kicked the chair out from underneath me, then complained about the noose. i bet it all on me and i was bluffing. cant you see i‘m the crucified, the crucifier and the crucifix. baby, i’m my own damn judas. i am alone when im in my head, its just me and my grief ridden consciousness. i cant help it, i cant help it, i‘m a bad lil doggie. i cant help it, i cant help it, i’m a bad lil doggie.